21 posts tagged “love”
I have been always fond of letters. Especially love letters. I remember when I was in my adolescent years and email or text messaging is not the "in" thing. All emotions were expressed through letters, whether it's a friendly letter or a love letter.
I have kept all the letters I received and when I am in that nostalgic mood, I sit down and read them.
Today, I did the same thing, although I did not read the letters written on paper. I checked my Friendster inbox and read the messages I got a few years back.
Then I came across with the sweetest yet saddest love letter I have received.
Here it is:
And it goes....
Message Detail
| From: |
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| Date: | 06/4/2006 6:57 am |
| Subject: | might lose you again... |
| Message: |
for a moment, i thought i lost you... there were
times when we hardly text or email each other. i
know you had your reasons. seems like we follow
a graph-like trend in communicating, there are
upward trends and there are downward
trends...and when we reach the point when we
always get in touch, it's one thing i fear the most.
cause right after that, i'd lose you again.i lose you
in a way that we don't get in touch...and you have
no idea how that hurts. it hurts to play the waiting
game. you know that i'm always here. just waiting
and watching the clock until you shoot me an
email or text message me. i don't want to dwell on
the communication thing. what's been done has
been done. i'm just happy that i have you again.
though not the "have you" way i always pictured
the both of us and i guess you know what i mean. i
understand why we can never be. i understand that
you have your reasons. i've been working on this
short message for about an hour now. it's funny
how i can't think of the right words to say. good
thing i have this thing called the backspace key
handy. i'm at loss for words...the words i am
writing now are the lucky refugees from the
dungeons of my brain. believe you me, i deviced a
brand new way of typing. it's called the type-delete-
type what you wrote again-delete-re-type again
way. i'm sure by now, you may be asking why i'm
writing you. forgive me for beating around the
bush...i ain't so good about these kind of things
anymore. a thousand letters i wrote you have been
thrown away cause they would never do...but this
one i'm taking to hell and back! well here it
goes...Dale, i get hurt whenever i check out your
shout outs or your blog and i see you hurting
because some jerk broke your heart. is this love
that i'm feeling? Dale, would you be mine? i know
i'd get hurt again by asking you that question...and
i don't mind getting hurt over and over and over
again...cause i love you. finally the cat's out of the
bag! hahahahahaha! this is suicide! please be
mine...please let me know if i have to play shadow
boxing in the dark again...a simple SMS would
suffice...i know i'd lose you again by doing
this...i'm taking the risk...
|
Sigh... isn't he romantic?
It's such a nice thought to have good and real friends who stays with you through the test of time. They are considered treasure. And if there's one thing that is hard to do... that is keeping that treasure safe with you.
But I have done a great job in keeping our friendship intact. A way of keeping one is marrying one them. Har! In case you didn't know, my husband and I have been friends since our freshman years.
I couldn't help but cry at the sight of my friends, each year we get together and we make it a point to be all present in that event.
Recently, we had our 12th year reunion and it was such a blast! A party heary event I suppose. Seeing them is like catching some rays.
Another wonderful thing about being friends since then is when you see each one of you transform. From that little geeky nerd to a total knockout. From that big bully and annoying jerk to a well-round man ready to take care of his own family. As for me, from that "funny-jokes-on-me diva" who always gets drunk and kisses the can, I have turned 360 degrees and bacame a wonderful, gorgeous yet bitchy mom (such narcissism! Har!)
But however we have changed, one thing still remains the same... that is how we love each other.
It's fun to remember highschool days, back when we were listening to recorded love songs on tape (read this: CASETTE TAPE! Har!) during our breaktime, cutting classes and sneaking out of the room to get in line first for lunch, crossing the waist-high flood after a party, our Junior and Senior prom, our study habits and what not.
Each year, we meet, we will always talk about how it was before. Each year, we laugh our hearts out, as we reminisce how innocent we were back then.
Happy 12th year anniversary guys! I love you!
Right now, I really don't know what to say, I don't know how to put things in to words. I don't feel that it's right to reveal our marital problems to everyone, but of course I really wouldn't do that. I just wanna write, how I feel.
I am pissed. I am frustrated. I am totally angry at the moment.
Don't get me wrong... this isn't gonna lead to a break up or anything.
It's probably the usual marriage quarrel.
It's just that i am not used to us fighting.
For the last few months we have been frequently fighting. I don't know if this is because of his hidden agony of losing both of his parents. He is totally bringing it out on me. He gets ticked off easily and I hate it.
Now I am getting ticked off easily.
I hate the things that run on my head.
I hate it because it is not good.
I want to write it, but I know thinking about it is a sin already.
How much more if I say it or write it.
What the heck.
I'm back again. For sometime I thought Vox has been totally blocked from my access. I was really freaking out when I can't open Vox from my office PC. Good thing I have friends from IT department. Hehehe... sly =)
And then there was the grieving period. I was gone from work for almost 2 weeks because my in-laws died.
Yeah, IN-LAWS.
My father in-law had cancer, but he did not die because of that. He died because he shot himself on the head.
Tragic.
My mother in-law was not able to take it. She has hypertension and was sent to the hospital and there she was in coma for a day and died the next day. She died of cardiac arrest.
My father in-law died on the 23rd of February at 51, my mother in-law died on the 24th of February, five days before her 54th birthday.
Their love was so intense, that even death did not separate them.
To my ama and ina,
Thanks for welcoming me into your lives. Thank you for loving me like your own daughter. You treated me well, and you were the only one who was there for me during that time that I need my parents but they were no where to be found. Thank you for giving birth to Gerald and for that, I have my whole life to thank you for having a great husband. Thank you for taking care of my son, in times where I can't be a mom to him because I needed to go far from him and work for his future. Thanks for supporting me and Gerald, because of you, we were able to go through tough changes in married life. Thanks for being the best example of love and the real essence of marriage. Being together, in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer, and even in death you were never apart.
Thank you, for fulfilling the true promise of love.
Your daughter in-law,
Dale
The Valentine fever is slowly creeping in...
Well, for me the best Valentine's day celebration will always be a day spent with my husband Gerald. Everyday is a Heart's day for as long as my husband and I are together.
Nothing beats watching American Idol or the evening news while my husband is hugging me. Valentine's day is best spent everyday, cooking dinner for him and eating with him, with an enormous appetite, thus killing my diet plan. =P
Happy Valentine's day daddy! Thanks for spending a lifetime of Valentine with me. I love you!
Before anything else: please visit me here
When I saw this post I was really excited to answer this! Not that I am not over my ex’s yet, but because I find it really interesting and I love reminiscing those days, when I was young, vulnerable and immature. I was tagged by my new blog friend Rhapsody.
Okay, so I’b be so bold enough to include their pictures, so I hope everyone else will do the same.
Here’s the rule:
- Post a picture of your EX (ex-boyfriend, girlfriend, MU, crush or whoever it is that you hate for hurting you in the past or present) and then answer the questions below. PAYBACK time!
- TAG as many as you can!
- A link to this post will be appreciated. TAG: Revenge of the Broken Hearts
DISCLAIMER: Sa mga EX ko, whose pictures appear here, walang personalan. Don’t worry no bad publicity. We’re all in good terms, ayt?! PEACE! =)
EX # 001: MARVIN
(the first love)
**Sorry, in as much as I want to show his photo, I just can’t this is to protect him and his family.
1. Have you forgiven him/her already?
Marvin - well, even if he affected my life big time for hurting me, I was able to forgive him the minute he broke up with me. Even if I was hurting I tried to understand him and we have been good friends.
Jhay - we never really had an official relationship. It was just ‘mutual understanding” although we failed to understand each other’s feelings that’s why the relationship was a failure. I forgave him already for not telling me how he really felt.
J - the relationship was truly a mistake from the start. I forgave myself already for loving him.
2. Do you regret ever meeting him/her? - No. Not at all. The experience no matter how painful was worth remembering. It taught me a lot of things and it made me who I am now. It helped me grow and be wise.
3. Describe him/her in three words:
Marvin - funny, sweet, irresponsible (well that was before, i don’t know now)
Jhay - mayabang pero malambing pero confusing
J - appealing, mature, loving
4. Are you over him/her? Certainly! I don’t I would marry my husband if I wasn’t over these men.
5. Would you give him/her a second chance? Kahit mag maka-awa? No…no…no. Ring… baby… MARRIED! =)
6. Would you visit him/her if he/she gets hospitalized? With Marvin, I guess not. Makikibalita nalang. But with Jhay and J, I think I will kasi tropa ko parin naman sila eh.
7. What if he/she died? Iiyak ka ba? Of course.
8. Have you tried to cheat on him/her?
Marvin - NO
Jhay - we weren’t really exclusively dating, so I still dated somehow (pangreserba! - sama!)
J - well, he was cheating and I was the object of such act. So I guess I was the accomplice. **guilty**
9. Have you lied to him/her? sheesh… everybody lies!
10. Your wish for that person:
For Marvin and Jhay, I hope you find the right girl who will make them complete. I hope they get successful and gain fulfillment in what they do now. I wish, they’d stop their vices and Marvin, I hope you become a better and a responsible person.
For J, I wish you a better and happier marriage. I hope what we had is the first and the last. Your wife deserves a more and whatever her shortcomings are does not equate to liberty of fooling around. You may have ruin your family’s life and mine. I never want that to happen. So love your wife and your daughters and I wish both of you will change into a better person coz everybody deserves a second, third, fourth… endless chance! =)
I am gonna tag: immortal rain, yupkigirl, rainysummer, kaytee, gem
What a perfect time to hear a very heartwarming song. Valentine's Day is coming soon and I'm so much in the mood to listen to OPM love songs. I really believe that we have nothing but the best love songs.
Of course to prove this truth I have here the song that I really find romantic when sung by Gary Valenciano, but I was surprised to hear the version of Regine Velasquez, and yes, it is so god damn beautiful. Makes me want to marry my husband again.
Here it is... enjoy!
Over the weekend, I had the best stress reliever ever... bonding with my son Joaquin and of course with his dad.
It seems like our little family is so addicted to photos, even my baby would look at the camera and strike a pose.
Here are some cute pics we caught over the weekend:
Smile Joaqui... smile.
Joaqui with his nephew Hudson.
As tough as daddy.
Mommy's little prince.
Nothing else works as a stress reliever but the sight of my son, fastly growing every week. Our set up is kinda hard for me, since I miss my son when I'm at work. I let my inlaws take care of Joaquin at Indang, Cavite while my hubby and I work and live here in Makati during the whole work week.
Haaay... no choice but to have a little bit of sacrifice. If only there are call centers in Cavite, then I'd probably be with my son everyday. Well gotta work since the price of milk, diapers and other baby stuff are really expensive. Of course I also want to give my son the best of everything in this world, that's why I hafta work my ass all night... and my husband... all day! Hehehehe! I'm just so excited for Saturdays and Sundays to come and long holidays too!
So fun playing with Joaqui, He's 2months old now... going on his 3rd month this October 8th. He smiles a lot now and plays with us especially early morning. Hmmm... nakakagigil talaga!!! I wish I can bring him here in the office... hahaha... at least I won't get bored monitoring and training agents!
Other cutie photos of Joaqui over the weekend! He's super adorable, never fails to make us fall inlove with him!
I am standing tall despite the apprehension and fear
For I know someone holds my hand...
A hand who's warmth made me brave.
The hand of a dauntless man, courageous yet faithful.
A man of pride but who knows how to cry.
He is a man of strong-will, but he listens when I speak.
He is a man of imperfection, but he is upright and humble enough to admit.
He may not give me what I want to possess,
But he can give laughter and genuine happiness.
He may not be able to show me the world,
But we eat together until our tummies grow as big as Earth.
He may not have all the wealth but he is dutiful.
His hands are rough yet cozy and strong to keep me close.
He may not be fit for a king but his heart fits with mine.
He is a man of God, a respectful son, an afable person...
A loving husband.
Truly mine...
He made me change...
He saved my life.
It was difficult...
But all he did was to give me love.
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