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I am staring blankly at my pc... still constructing the resignation letter I will give my manager tonight.

Yeah it has to be short, well-mannared and not so emotional.

Oh yes I am emotional at this point! Whenever I try writing my resignation letter, my head gives me words that sound like I'm breaking up with my boyfriend. Indeed it feels like that. Almost 4 years of comfort under my company's safe wings.

Okay, so I'll copy a resignation template online. I guess that's the best thing to do.

But my heart is compelling me to write a long and emotional letter. Not only for my managers but also to my colleagues. I'm thinking so many versions....

The HR specialist, just called me a while back. Informed me that they raised their offer, closer to what I expected but not quite. I still accepted it, because this time it's not about the monetary value... it's about the new things I will learn and the new experience I will cherish.

Which brings me back to my doodling.

I have been endlessly questioning myself, am I about to do the right thing?

I really do not know. But I want to know, I am just scared that I might make a big mistake.

I have always had this feeling that I'm all dressed up but I have nowhere to go. Now that I have found a place to explore my capabilities, I suddenly felt scared to jump. I don't want to be a lost ball in the high weeds.

I have 2 weeks left, to finish things for my company. To bid goodbye to my friends and dwell on the memories I will bring as I move forward.

I am back to the wall, it's so difficult to decide. Although I know I have already made one. I am just anxious to finalize it.

The ball is in my court. This is it. I have to take the next step and move on.

I guess, I want to make this decision because I don't want to be stuck here and in the future I'd be thinking, "what if I took the job?"

I can always come back if I'm unhappy there. (There goes my consolation!) =P

It breaks my heart to leave. This has been my comfort zone. This place even makes me feel homier than my apartment. But life wouldn't be as fun without change. I don't want to settle for comfort.

I'll miss my friends, I'll miss my desk and my pc with a pink desk top. I'll miss my locker, the pantry, the entire city of Makati. I will sure miss a hell lot'ta things, but missing makes me grow. Detachment makes me strong and changes make me learn.

One thing is certain, I will always carry the values I have learned from this company.

No matter where I go, I will uphold the virtue of a true IBMer.