1 post tagged “challenge to change”

Towards the end of 2007 til the first quarter of 2008, I remember dreaming of a tornado most of the time. Actually it all started after I gave birth to my son Joaquin. I was quite bothered about it because it is a natural disaster that can kill and it comes unexpectedly.

Undeniably, I want to grow old and see my son have kids as well.

I consulted the ever reliable internet and searched about dreams and their meaning. Lo and behold... dreaming of a tornado means "having drastic changes in your life".

Today, I look back and analyze how my life have been these past few months. Indeed, changes in my life came like a tornado. But it did not kill me. It made me stronger.

The events that changed my life were amazing. I got married, moved out of my parents' house, gave birth, I lost my in-laws. All these made me tough but somehow it did not change the bitch in me.

Until my boss came to me and challenge me for a 360 degree change.

It is a known fact how I bitch around about stuff especially about work, how I hate the see-saw ride that seems endless and never really brought me to the path where I want my career to be. So she and I had a chat, about work, about my vision as a trainer and her vision as a manager.

To cut the long story short, she entrusted me with a great mission that cannot be measured by physics, calculus or any monetary value.

That is to inspire my team and inculcate positivity in our working environment.

Duh!!!

The normal me would probably say, "That's crap! increase our pay, then we'll be positive! We need to be financially charged."

But I did not say that... not even crossed my mind at that time. Surprisingly, my heart was touched, though my boss hates drama, she somehow made me realize how negative I am as a person. She did not tell me I was, she kind of gave a task to me because I have been in the team for 3 years and I know how to handle them, that made me realize, I was part of the problem, I sometimes start the problem.

And to change a community means changing yourself first.

I should start changing myself first. It's tough!

People see me as someone who's upfront, frank, though I am sometimes quiet and reserved, when I feel like reacting, I'd say my piece and whoever gets in the way will be crushed by my words.

My boss talked me in to it. I am not expecting any promotion in return if I succeed, I thank her instead, because I don't like the person I am becoming.

It may not be New Year yet but I'm taking the challenge. I have started to change my ways at work. I try to promote positivity at work to myself. I just hope they all emulate my example.

I just pray this goes on and I don't get tired. But I still think I'd still be bitching around, although not as often as I was.

I want to be just like my boss.... I want to touch lives in a not so cheesy way.

I'd also like to quote her... this was her advice to me for me to be able to climb up the corporate vampire ladder. She goes... "When you work, you should focus on learning so you'll have a lot of things to offer, put the promotion on your peripheral vision so that you just don't work because of that goal. You work because you want to learn and earn. The promotion is just a prize for doing a good job."

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